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It’s been a while

I know it’s been like a week since I have posted but I have been researching a new topic that will go along with my money savings! That’s what I’m all about, saving money! But I’m waiting for money to come in so I can kick start this process. My new topic will be homemade soaps and household cleaners! I’m really excited to do this but how am can I write about it if I haven’t tried it? So I think I will just have to stick this out and write about my experiences when I have started them. Can’t wait to share with you all soon! If you want a sneak peek visit my Pinterest board “for the home”

P.s I also just started classes again so basically my entire schedule is going through some chaos!

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My biggest struggle

So this post will be about me, man I like to talk about myself, but I’m really hoping it might help someone out there.

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So since I started grade school I was teased and bullied because of how I looked. I have been so insecure throughout my whole life because I felt that everyone was judging me. It didn’t help I had my dad breathing down my neck to be a stick or my whole family judging and talking about me behind my back. I felt so ugly and so fat. I constantly compared myself to other women (even though I was a young girl) trying desperately to be thin going to extreme measures of not eating for days. Binge eating and trying to throw it all up again. I would wear low cut shirts to get the boys attention. I learned how to do make up. I would wear make up and straighten my hair every single day even on the weekends. All I did was dress up. I never had Tshirt and sweatpants days. All I would do was look in the mirror and tell myself I was fat and ugly. Looking back now I was perfect I looked gorgeous and I’m sure a lot of girls envied me. Now I’m a mom and I never do my hair I never put makeup on I always have Tshirt and sweatpants days. But now I’m more depressed I look at myself and say I should have done this I should do this. Because back then I was 130 and now I’m 185. But day after day as my husband tells me I’m beautiful I look in the mirror and say I’m okay with my muffin top I’m okay with my hair in a ponytail I’m okay with my stretch marks. Not saying that I don’t want to change my health habits and loose a little weight but if your not okay with what you look like now then how are you going to like what you look like later. I saw a video about a women who was very unhappy with herself do she started working out and eating right. she got to exactly where she wanted to be. She was one of those muscly girls who flex and tan and get judged and stuff. She said it still wasn’t good enough. She still wasn’t happy with herself even having the perfect body many of us would kill for. If You want to change how you look. You have to love what you look like now. I had long hair when I was young my hair is beautiful but I absolutely never do it and even if I do do it by the middle of the event we are at it’s up in a ponytail. My usual. Seriously people can recognize me from behind because of my ponytail. Horrible😰. But for some reason I always look at pictures of women who have long gorgeous hair and how they style it and I plan on all these things but never do them. So I’m going for that mom look and I’m chopping off my hair for something different to get away from the ponytail so I can find myself beautiful. The only person who is judging you is you. If you think blue eyeshadow makes you look amazing then wear. wear what you feel looks best because no one who is judging is going to matter but you. Make yourself happy in every way. Love yourself for your wrinkles and your big thighs. Love yourself because you made it to fifty. Love your grey hair. Love your own beauty because you are real and the super models in the magazines are photoshopped. Be your kind of beautiful. Love yourself today so you can change and still be happy because it’s you.
Hope this inspires someone! 😘❤️

Meal planning! My shopping trip!

So I’m done shopping y’all!
Now I’m going to admit my faults and praise my rights!Lol
Let’s do faults first.
One I bought stuff not on my list but in my defense I had good coupons and these things we semi needed items.
Two I brought one of my kiddos along
Three I kinda went over board on the crystal light…
So when I took my kiddos to the doc for their check ups they weighed my three year old and told me he weighed 52 pounds and was 3ft 3in tall.. That’s a BIG three year old. He is in the 75 percentile for his height but unfortunately his weight has sky rocketed off the chart.. Why am I telling you this? Because my child does nothing but drink juice all day long when he was at day care he would only get milk at lunch and water the rest of the day but he knows we have it here and refuses water now 😦 so because juice has a ton of calories and sugar I decided to not buy juice and get the crystal light mixes and the squirt mix stuff. This has less calories and he still has the water. I went over board on crystal light because as I said last blog post my Kroger was doing the buy five save five and almost all the crystal light was part of that. I got each thing of crystal light for 1.68$! Awesome deal so I bought a bunch.. Like every flavor… Probably won’t have to buy some until the middle of next month. That took a good chunk from my budget that I wasn’t planning on spending for it but at least I didn’t spend a ton on juice and that!
Let’s move on the the praise!
I did so well on my meat! They didn’t have a ton of sales for meat but they had several items on manager special!
I got ground chicken for .79 cents a pound! I only got two because we really don’t use ground chicken but I figured I would come up with something. I got pork chops sets of four for 2.00$ each! Almost every item of meat I got was manager special. They also had the pack of ten burgers for ten dollars. I also got a big bag of chicken leg quarters for 6.69. I did very well and got a lot. My was empty freezer is now packed to the brim! Along with the five for five deal I had corresponding coupons and got some juice for me and the hubby. It was the trop50 and the tropicana farm stand I got for a 1.50 each! For my whole trip I saved around 65$! Woohoo!
I think we should be able to last all month at least I hope so!

Healthy food actually that good for you??

So all of us ladies keep up with the latest food fads and what other healthy recipes can we find because who doesn’t like to keep a slim figure right? Well I just read a story of a man who ate nothing but McDonalds for 3 whole months breakfast lunch and dinner. He lost 37 pounds and his cholesterol went down significantly. And he actually only went on a 45 minute walk everyday. The catch is he kept to the recommended 2,000 calorie limit. His point is that it’s not what or where we eat it’s just how much we eat and the choices we make. So the media is always blaming fast food for making America fat which is completely untrue because you made the choice to eat to much. You make yourself fat. Let’s just be honest here. We love our greasy burgers and salty fries (well I know I do) but if you want to eat that then sure but that means you have to eat less for the other meals. Now this doesn’t mean I don’t want fast food chains such as McDonald’s to not have healthier options because I really do. You can eat unhealthy and lose weight but will you really feel that great? Probably not but that doesn’t mean you should not EVER have it. So when you read those stories about how horrible and full of calories this places food is and how they should be shut down because they make people fat… Just remember that people make their own choices and it’s not only the fault of the restaurant. One thing I do find irritating is how expensive being healthy at fast food places really is compared to there unhealthy counterparts. You can get a single burger at mcdonalds for a dollar plus tax. If you get just a salad it is around 7$ now the salad has all kinds of toppings while the burger had bread cheese and what seems to be meat and is significantly smaller. But the cost of a head of lettuce is around $0.75-1.00 (don’t hold me to that…) but that head of lettuce can make three of their salad and the toppings are very little as well so how could they make a burger a dollar and still get profit to pay for the stores and employees? I don’t know I just wish they were equally the same amount but I don’t run a restaurant so I couldn’t offer any expertise in the subject… I wish they could make the salads more affordable for the less fortunate but this comes back around to choices and how to often people make poor ones.
Back to the healthy diets and such ladies if you want to loose a little weight just make sure you count those calories and do some exercising and slowly but surely you will reach your goal.

*This is not meant to slander the Mcdonalds restaurants at any point they have great options and was just used as an example restaurant because most people know of it.*

Tired of being late!

When I was a teenager I was taught you weren’t on time unless you were early. So when I am right on time for something I feel defeated and late and rushed. Horrible. When I had my first son I was still reasonably on time for things with the occasional lateness by that definition above. When I had my second son everything change now I’m actually late for almost everything… Ughhh especially when I go to my parents house in Dallas. It has gotten so bad that my parents don’t even ask what time I will be there anymore… And people tell me to set to go extra early and you will be on time. Well that doesn’t work because I already know what I’m doing and I will still be late… Plus I tried it already… For someone who was always early and aware of what time it is at all times how in adult life could I be late?! I guess it’s the kids I just can’t handle my time well.. Idk but I really really really hope I get better at this as they get older!

It’s time for a rant!

Ok so writing things down helps me get over stuff so let’s have a talk about my day.
Woke up.. Late around 9:45 both my kids were up but didn’t come wake me and for some reason the baby monitor was unplugged!? But they are only 1 and 3 so they don’t know to come get me.. Anyway I get up quickly because we suppose to be meeting their cousins for lunch at 11:15 I hurry make them breakfast get them cleaned off and dressed about 10:50 I’m throwing on clothes and trying to get their shoes on. I am literally 2 min down the road from my house and a cop pulls me over… Just GREAT. My inspection sticker is out… I get a ticket… Great… Then we head over to the play ground and they play but my children refuse to eat probably because they had pancakes for breakfast but it had been a while so I figured they would be wanting a snack like they usually do but my kids decide today of all days is to defy me and throw a huge tantrum in the middle of the play areas while everyone stares at us… So then we go to see their grandma at work so she can watch them while I get my sticker done because there is a penzoil right behind her job… Everything is good until I try to take the boys home… And here is the 2nd tantrum of our day… But I had gotten a call while the cop was pulling me over that we were excepted to a program for the boys to get then ready for kindergarten and we had to make doctor appointments and bring proof that we made the appointments. Sooooo after we get the screaming toddlers into the car and leave I have to take them to their doctor and dentist to get appointment cards for our enrollment on Monday. Ok so in the chaos that was last night and today I haven’t cleaned my house so I bring two sleepy toddlers into my house and I’m just like oh crap I haven’t cleaned and their grandpa is coming over in a couple of hours to get something. This is okay because they are about to take a nap right? Not…. Thankfully at least one is passed out but the other refuses naps now that he is out of school… And all this is going on and I’m worried about my dad getting mad because it was his car and he wanted me to call him whenever I got my oil changed which I didn’t do and my inspection done…

Ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

The moral of the story is… Keep your head up because the pain will fade and the sun will shine again and everything will be okay again.

So this is just a thought…

Today I have reflected so much on my life and how I have grown as a person. I don’t know why today or why not yesterday but I can truly see how far I have come.
I was a bad kid not horrible but I had sex at 14. what 14 year old girl should be doing that. None. If I knew then what I know now I would not have done that but everyone has mistakes and the only way to get past those mistakes are to learn from them. I had several “boyfriends” which really weren’t boyfriends but I talked to a lot of boys but the point is I had no reason to receive male attention. I lived with my dad and we had a great relationship. I don’t know I guess it’s that teenage phase. As I was talking to boys and being teenager-Ish I always had my friend by my side who was there through everything. He was a boy and just sat idly by while I basically “dated” all of his friends. Whenever I realized I had true feeling for him it was like fireworks. We were inseparable. And we stayed together it will be 6 years this June. I am very weird about people and I don’t have a lot of true friends but he is truly my absolute best friend ever. Does that make our relationship easy? Heck no. We have been through so many ups and downs I don’t think there is anything we cannot get past. When we were younger I was quick to try and end things because we were young how could we last forever if was bound to end but now that we are older divorce or splitting up has never came as an option. We have only grown closer and now that I have grown wiser I have learned that the fairy tale love is not real. Even if you are head over heels in love with someone things will change and the newness of your relationship will fade but if you truly love that person you will fight for your love. Fight is literal I have to fight back all the negative thoughts all the negative facts and push through because it will get better.
It is so funny we will get into a huge argument and I will leave the room and get on Pinterest and pin stuff for our wedding because no matter how angry I get with him I know he will always be there. He is my person (I’m a Grey’s anatomy fan 😊) he is truly the one person I can completely trust. I have a “bubble” and I don’t like people in it. I don’t mean the physical bubble everyone refers to. I mean it’s like that but it’s also a mental thing. I don’t like people to come to my house and visit it’s just weird to me not because I don’t think it’s normal but I just don’t want people in my sanctuary and I don’t tell people things about me or how I feel only he knows absolutely everything. He is the one person who will know what I would want if I couldn’t communicate.

I wish the little girl of me would not have dreamed for that love story because I didn’t get it I thought we would just love each other and live our lives loving each other. It is so much work. It is hard. But it is truly worth every bit of it to have that one person that is completely ok with you after knowing everything. It is truly a blessing that I am thankful for.

I got off track talking about my relationship but I have grown in the fact that now I know that you have to work to keep what you love nothing will fall into place he doesn’t complete me but we work to work together we work for our love we give to each other. I would not have said any of this before and I am proud of myself for that. We have so much more to learn and so much more growing to do but I am proud to say I will fight for us always. To look back and see how childish I was is horrible but I’m happy that I have learned from my mistakes and can move on with life as a better person.

I don’t want anyone to feel as though they should model their relationship after ours because we are not perfect and everyone functions differently. Work in what you feel should be the way to love together.